1. |
apology letter
02:07
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i use to mistake the comfort you had around me
for something different entirely
getting out of there was one of
the only things i did for you not for your love
you said that i was number one
but if i wasn’t there you’d have more fun
you left for those who were better
then wrote me apology letters
I see now that the way you treated me
was calculated completely
you had me wrapped around your finger
it was whole entire life that you hindered
you said that i was number one
but if i wasn’t there you’d have more fun
you left for those who were better
then wrote me apology letters
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2. |
spiral
01:35
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i’m stuck inside this spiral
i need to hold on for survival
everything is slippery
nobody here is looking out for me
you’re not around anymore
to pick me up off of the floor
i’m here alone
waiting patiently by the phone
you tie your shoes so speedily
take advantage of me so greedily
i always knew you'd get out first
underestimated the way it would hurt
i’ve always mattered less
compared to you I am a mess
i know that i matter less
so why even stress
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3. |
white paintings
01:17
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we were on the same bed but not in the same lane
we made fun of old friends to make us feel sane
we sat around and listened to lou reed
of everywhere you could be why here with me
you held my hand but there was a disconnect
our conversations were bland a lack of intellect
white paintings were a bad distraction
the kind of art that entails little reaction
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4. |
deceiving
01:14
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you blame me for all your problems
but don't know where i got them
count me out of the equation
you only show up on occasion
so how could i be of influence
you only show up in your convenience
say thats not why yeah ur deceiving
after some time you end up leaving
you make me feel like I'm drowning
and i cant make a sound
you always said I'm too loud
so aren't you proud
yea aren't you proud
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5. |
expectations
01:23
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in my head
my expectations have led
me down a path i cant escape
i always hoped that this wouldn't be the case
thought of you as the spring
forgot that warm weather brings
sun burns and mosquitos
i am burnt from my head to my toes
its clear to me
you aren’t what i hoped you would be
you’re not what i wanted you to be
you’re not who i needed you to be
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6. |
nothing is new
00:52
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I haven’t seen you in years
its one of my biggest fears
to be what she was to me
to anybody
i still have all your clothes
and everybody knows that
when i speak of you
its about the things we used to do
nothing is new
so how are things with you
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7. |
art class
01:46
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that morning i sat on the couch in her apartment
looked out the window at washington square park and
the monitor flatlined you said it was time for art
without a choice i took the F train from west 4th
imagined you back there with her hand in yours
i started crying as i heard the closing doors
i was surrounded but had never felt more lonely
at delancy’s when it truly came over me
got off at york street and walked towards the water
i realized it had been the final time i saw her
i thought why am i here right now for art class
considering that my grandma has just passed
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